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Hello everyone. It's been a very long time since I last wrote a journal...About 4 years! Anyways...I hope you all are well...
*Sighs* I guess I'm just really very nervous...you see, I've been writing poems and stories for about 6 years, and maybe 2 months ago by a mysterious force I was compelled to put my poems up on DA...(Really, I have no idea what made me do it, it was unusual.) All the while I was worried about what people may think of them...Would they like or dislike it? Hate it or love it? Will they comment or critique it? Maybe both?
An amazingly talented artist (and one of my many best friends') has been the only one who's commented on anything I wrote so far...but thankfully some people were kind enough to favorite a few of my poems...
And when I told her about the literature groups I joined she said, "Good, now go on and put you're stories on DA too, I'm sure they'd like it". But I don't have her type of optimism...Or her great writing skills...(Although she's kind enough to disagree)...
I mean...I really would like to show people what I can do...but there's always my constant worrying...I like to write many types of stories: Fantasy, adventure, romance, dark, real-life...(Mostly romantic chapters so far) But what if people think that my concepts are all stupid and a waste of time trying to understand?
I've only had 6 of my closest friends' read a chapter from one of my stories...they all seemed like it, some loved it, and one even said that if I made it into a 300 page book he'd have me autograph it and he'd add it to his collection. Lol...I even read a page to my Mom, (but she wasn't really open minded at the time, 'cause she thinks all I ever write is the romance so she didn't want me to read her all 5 pages...plus she said something that I thought was very hurtful and embarassingly gross that I cannot repeat on here).
But they are all kind people who think that I'm a good yet to be writer who's very talented...But usually I'm too worried about how it would turn out if I did show the world...I've been inspired by many great artists and authors...created many character descriptions and stories concepts, I even collaborated with someone long ago...and all I feel is...like I could never amount to anything great like them or everyone else...
Am I right or am I right? I hardly get any "constructive" criticism or any feedback on my poems so why should my stories be any different? Or what if they did critique me but they basically said I was a terrible striving wanna be author???
Or worse: what if people decide to be cruel and steal my poems, lyrics, stories, characters' and concepts and claim it as if they made it??????
Oh, my spirit would be completely shot down!!!
Or maybe it isn't just that...maybe it could be because people must have checked my profile and think I critique myself enough already so they think critiquing me would be useless...or maybe it's because they already agree with me that it's bad and there's no need for them to say anything...
*sighs* I'm sorry everyone...Sorry, sorry, sorry...I haven't changed much at all...In shyness, nervousness or pessimism...
I pray one day I'll have the courage and strength...Thank you for listening.
*Sighs* I guess I'm just really very nervous...you see, I've been writing poems and stories for about 6 years, and maybe 2 months ago by a mysterious force I was compelled to put my poems up on DA...(Really, I have no idea what made me do it, it was unusual.) All the while I was worried about what people may think of them...Would they like or dislike it? Hate it or love it? Will they comment or critique it? Maybe both?
An amazingly talented artist (and one of my many best friends') has been the only one who's commented on anything I wrote so far...but thankfully some people were kind enough to favorite a few of my poems...And when I told her about the literature groups I joined she said, "Good, now go on and put you're stories on DA too, I'm sure they'd like it". But I don't have her type of optimism...Or her great writing skills...(Although she's kind enough to disagree)...
I mean...I really would like to show people what I can do...but there's always my constant worrying...I like to write many types of stories: Fantasy, adventure, romance, dark, real-life...(Mostly romantic chapters so far) But what if people think that my concepts are all stupid and a waste of time trying to understand?
I've only had 6 of my closest friends' read a chapter from one of my stories...they all seemed like it, some loved it, and one even said that if I made it into a 300 page book he'd have me autograph it and he'd add it to his collection. Lol...I even read a page to my Mom, (but she wasn't really open minded at the time, 'cause she thinks all I ever write is the romance so she didn't want me to read her all 5 pages...plus she said something that I thought was very hurtful and embarassingly gross that I cannot repeat on here).
But they are all kind people who think that I'm a good yet to be writer who's very talented...But usually I'm too worried about how it would turn out if I did show the world...I've been inspired by many great artists and authors...created many character descriptions and stories concepts, I even collaborated with someone long ago...and all I feel is...like I could never amount to anything great like them or everyone else...
Am I right or am I right? I hardly get any "constructive" criticism or any feedback on my poems so why should my stories be any different? Or what if they did critique me but they basically said I was a terrible striving wanna be author???
Or worse: what if people decide to be cruel and steal my poems, lyrics, stories, characters' and concepts and claim it as if they made it??????
Oh, my spirit would be completely shot down!!!
Or maybe it isn't just that...maybe it could be because people must have checked my profile and think I critique myself enough already so they think critiquing me would be useless...or maybe it's because they already agree with me that it's bad and there's no need for them to say anything...
*sighs* I'm sorry everyone...Sorry, sorry, sorry...I haven't changed much at all...In shyness, nervousness or pessimism...
I pray one day I'll have the courage and strength...Thank you for listening.
A change in life...
I don't know how to say this...but I need help. Like, serious, emotional help. For my strength as a person. Nearly all of my life I have been a past dweller. And like my mother pointed out before she left I have so much pent up sadness and anger and drama-fueled issues that I still have yet to deal with. I'm afraid to. All of it stems from my childhood...Though billions of people worldwide have gone through so worse things than I ever had...
Reflecting back on my life now, it's why I can still be so cold hearted and passive-aggressive and distrusting and skeptical. Towards my family and my friends--the people who genuinely care about me.
How to love...
Hello everyone. I hope you all have had a good Thanksgiving...Well mine was...*sigh* something.
Have you ever prayed for a miracle to happen in your life, something that seems too good to be true?
Well, that's what happened to me...
A month and two days ago I met this guy at campus. And somehow I was able to get the courage and speak to him first...And surprisingly for strangers, we were having very deep conversations. And we liked each other so much (or I liked him that fast) we exchanged cell numbers & e-mail. Then after that, everything just clicked. We became super-fast friends, I even made a promise to him that we would be friends no
Nobody-Telling it like it is.
Okay I'm just going to get on everyones nerves and tell it like it is: My art is very ugly and pathetic! Very pathetic. I wish I had good talent like everyone else on DA. And (Please excuse my being rude; what I'm about to say is very unforgivable!) If I were to come across someone's art that just happened to be not so good... (What did I tell you?, MEAN!)I could still find a great difference between us other than our art. That is that there not afraid to keep trying and that it's okay to make mistakes because they have true courage that keeps them from not giving up; that's truly AMAZING! Me on the other hand, my weakness of not being good e
Still failing! Maybe worse!
My drawing are still bad!!! ;_; All I can do is like look at all my how to draw books and some comic books! It's so frusrating! I feel like a failure almost every day! And once when I went to my dad's house, I showed his girlfriend my picture I drew on DA ( The human picture of Rouge the bat) She told me everything I messed up on which didn't make me feel any better because I told her ( If I can remember right) that it was bad to begin with and I knew it. I knew all that already T T; Everyone who has seen my picture all know that my drawings are all bad I'm a loser and I'm just kidding myself to think that I can do it.
I read the comments I
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Wow, you're a worrier aren't you? I write poetry too, but I have yet to post anything on here. But I understand how nervous you feel to share something so personal and put it up to scrutiny. That said, this is a forum for...pretty much every form of art, which includes writing. 
As far as I can tell we're an open minded, supportive community. And since we're already artists, I think you'd get positive and constructive feedback. I'm interested in reading your work. I love reading fantasy, especially.
As far as I can tell we're an open minded, supportive community. And since we're already artists, I think you'd get positive and constructive feedback. I'm interested in reading your work. I love reading fantasy, especially.